I guess I’ve been super bored lately or maybe it’s because I keep listening to nostalgic/depressing songs, but I’ve been having weird, uncomfortable thoughts. I’ve been wondering why things just can’t stay permanent. A lot of things are just temporary and I guess I don’t really like that. Even if something bad were to stay with me forever, I’ll learn how to live with it. I’ve realized I don’t like this on and off feeling I’ve been experiencing for some time now. I’m bad at coping with changes (death, loss, you get the picture).

It’s a bit ironic how I dislike change so much and yet I’ve noticed how I, myself have been changing. I don’t know how to explain it, but I just don’t care about the things I used to care about anymore. When some people come up to me and talk to me about their problem (most of them have impossible solutions), I just secretly want to tell them to just deal with the problem. All in all, I’ve just been getting angry at people for whining/complaining to me only when they need me and I really don’t care what they have to say when they message me on AIM or anything. Maybe this is partly due to the fact that I just want to be happy without ANY dramatic interruptions. When I try to listen to someone talk about their problems, they don’t seem to want to listen to me talk about mine. Very annoying, irritating, (just come up with all the enraged adjectives you can use to explain this situation). Well, I guess I don’t mind that much. I’ve developed a habit for not talking out my problems to other people anyway. I just dislike self-centered people (I’m guessing most of us do). Okay, I’m done ranting.

So…I have a high frequency SAT quiz tomorrow on quite a few words. My verbal teacher decided to not tell us and I just found out from my reading comprehension teacher today. Yeah, I love you too ACI. Thankfully, I know more than half the words so I guess that counts for something? Well, July 4th on Friday so I get a three day weekend. Sweet!

-Winnie