Turned a year older about a week ago. Didn’t have a fancy party or anything. Just went out with my friends, had a great time, and that’s the way it should be.

School’s going to be over in about a week after finals. I hate studying, but I must. I have ACI this summer too. Great, my own personal hell.

On the bright side, a family of cats (a mother and three kittens) have been coming to our house everyday. My dad feeds them every night and I’m already becoming attatched to them. I even named them–Pocky (he’s my favorite), Keiichi (Ricky came up with this. He’s obsessed with the name), Sydney (after my character), and Nagi (I thought it sounded interesting for the mother). They just make me very happy for some unexplained reason. I love them.

Will write more after finals.

-Winnie

Fevers

Haha, I’m really sick. I’ve had a fever that kept going on and off last night and at around 1:00 or so, I had a fever of 102. I don’t know why, but I just started crying. Oh wait. I DO know. My throat felt horrible, my headache was getting worse, and I couldn’t even talk. That’s not really the reason though.

I’m really trying my best to talk to him, but people have been telling me he probably feels awkward since I’m always so quiet. I know it’s my fault if that really is true. People have also been suggesting that that’s also the reason he hasn’t been coming anymore. I really don’t know what to think anymore. I’ve been having thoughts about this. I know exactly what I’m thinking, but I can’t say it aloud. I can’t even talk about it to my friends. I want to, but I just can’t. I’m scared if I say it aloud, it’ll come true or if I say it aloud, it’ll remind me that it’s true. A lot of these thoughts are disturbing to me in a way. I just don’t know what to think anymore. I guess this is the reason why I started crying last night. There were too many thoughts in my head and I couldn’t take the excruciating headaches anymore.

The thought of leaving someone without saying a word makes me sad. I want to talk this out to my friends, but I just can’t bring myself to say it. I try to, but I can’t do anything. My throat feels like it’s bleeding.

-Winnie

Hiatus

I won’t be writing in this thing for a while. I’ve been getting a lot of homework lately and I have a huge religion project to work on so I really don’t have the time to write in here everyday. I’ll be on hiatus for a short while until my religion project is done at least. I’ll write when I have time, but otherwise I’m taking a break. There hasn’t been much going on lately anyways.

I’ll write again as soon as possible. I would really like to write about my days right now, but I’ve just been so busy and tired that I haven’t been in the mood. My apologies. I wished I had less work to do because I really love writing in here.   Again, I will write again as soon as I have time.

-Winnie 

To Jenman and Shu

To Jenman and Shu:

11/28/07

Woot! 

Love you guys. Best wishes.